Right now, I'm feeling a little bit like I'm just not supposed to have friends. Every time I plan a day to go see someone, we all end up being sick. Or something else crazy happens like our car breaks down. And I've been feeling like none of my friends make the effort to plan days either. Maybe it's just because I'm a crazy radical now, and nobody likes hanging out with me. Or maybe it's that they all have new friends who are closer, and I'm just a loner. I just haven't made a connection with anyone around me, and I feel a little bit like Matt and Julie are my only friends. I don't know whether it's me-and I'm just not a good friend-or it's the changing we've all done, or it's my crazy ideas about the way the world is, or just the distance. I've really been feeling alone lately though. And it's ok. but it's hard.